Because I am 24 and have a blog, I’m an expert and can tell you anything and everything!!
No, I can only tell you the bit of insight I have gathered now, as I am wide awake at 6:30 am in Addis Ababa, Ethiopia, suffering from jet lag and a gnarly change in altitude, while listening to the roaring freeway underneath my apartment.
Life is intended to be stupidly difficult, and the more time we ask this question –what is life?!?- the more time we aren’t living it. The people who seem to “do life” the best are the people who accept it for what it is: a total shit show. Life is like an angsty teen, rebelling against the standards society puts on us. “Oh you have to be to work at 9:00, well oops! A tree just fell over on your route, hope your boss doesn’t mind you showing up to that meeting 15 minutes late!”
Any sorts of expectations we seem to create are almost always blown out of the water, and this is especially difficult for those of us who are new to “the real world” and have just graduated college. Our lives have had some sort of structure to them up until this point. Our school, parents, counselors, professors have all in one way or the other taken the responsibility of being a buffer between us and the worlds fuckery; and now we are out there, in the world, burning like a babies ass in the sun.
The struggle is REAL.
I have spent most of my life trying to make plans, or trying to stick to them. The fear of failure lives deep inside me and has dictated most of my decisions. Graduating college felt like what I can only imagine taking a final exam standing on top of a motorcycle whizzing through cars at 85 mph while on acid… It was not going well for me, for multiple reasons. Needless to say I could not keep going at the momentum I was, in the way that I was, so I crashed… horribly.
And so I write, after life fully exploded in my face, and landed me some how on the other side of the world, reminded by a few wise words my grandpa used to say, “Fuck ‘em!”
Success is enjoying and moving with the bullshit and the beauty that is life; failure is spending all our time struggling to succeed.